Budden said that this track was the most emotionally challenging one for him out of all the tracks on the album.
Download: Joe Budden - Mood Muzik 4 (DatPiff)
I be at the mall
walk up in a store
glance up at the wall
pick outta few kicks
uhn, I need 11's in these
matter fact while you at it, bring 'em in a size 6
uhn, I take short's shoes off like try on these J's
make sure them shits fit
uhn, but in my head it gets fixed
sayin' Joey fall back 'cause that's not your kid
I dunno you lil nigga, and plus I gotta son of my own
yeah, but he's at home
and the way he's bein' raised I don't really condone
nah, 'cause his pop's been gone
fuck it, I'll explain it to him later when he grown
old enough to have a phone
ask him why mommy hates me and I gotta sneak to call me whenever he's alone
so you wouldn't know it but I gotta soar spot for you
we share the same obstacles
lookin' from the outside may seem like you neglect him
but when he slips up and calls me dad, I correct him
I protect him, when babygirl start ventin' 'bout you, I say respect him
and though it seems outta order
my own mistakes have turned me into your biggest supporter
fast forward, you wouldn't believe
how I could love like mine what I didn't conceive
try to help him reach shit that I never achieved
am I doin' it for him or is it my own greed?
you see, me and my baby-mom, we don't do the conversations
son cramped in the back, two bedroom shack
other people livin' there just congregatin'
so when your child's with me, I'm overcompensatin'
I'm talkin' eight bedrooms, seven baths
my son thinkin' that's the shit that only heaven has
mines gotta keep it cool, yours gets to see the view
white marble 'round the in-ground heated pool
mine's gotta go to the Y, yours gotta walk outside
and the funny shit (what?) the irony of it all, and it's just sad
'cause you walked away yet I'm the step-dad
uhn, and then you get on Skype, sayin' how you bein' what's the word?
and I be in the background listenin' like this muhfucker, he got some nerve
he says "bye, daddy, I love you"
I be wantin' to snuff you but wouldn't have him thinkin' less of you
but he's perceptive, and this shit's wild
he picks up on e'rything and he's just a child
so through all my resistance
I'm afraid this two-year-old can already see the difference
he sees you don't provide when you're capable
why we never fixed things while we were able to?
so you're annoyed, kinda hampers me
get my void, I always wanted a family
just to greet when I get through the door
you gon' have to take the L, I can't give you yours
I do all of the work, you ain't gotta be bothered
you can be his dad, I'll be his father
I relate though, so I know it hurts
gotta be uncomfortable when the roles reverse
I been in your shoes my whole life, nigga, try these on
I relate though, so I know it hurts
gotta be uncomfortable when the roles reverse
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